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.Answering the phone, filling out our paperwork, reacting toour child s temper tantrum when we re already late for an appointment, meditating while ourneighbor cranks up the volume on his stereo, we express ourselves as we actually are rather thanhow we like to think of ourselves.In this spot, there is usually some gap between our image andour reality.Then we may feel there is some problem with the world or some problem withourselves, and spend our lives trying to find some place where the external circumstances matchour image of how they should be or seeking a cure to help us correspond to our ideal image ofourself.However hard we try, though, we cannot live our life in some ideal fashion free fromexternal and internal problems.Our practice lies not in ridding ourselves of our problems, but in finding our problems againand again, each time in more subtle forms, until we are on intimate terms with them.Then westart to experience freedom.This is not a freedom from fear and sadness, for these are stillfrequent companions in a world filled with suffering and hurt.Rather, this is a freedom fromisolation and disconnectedness, a freedom which celebrates the realities of our lives.The reality of our life takes place at the gap.This is our element.The only way we can closethe gap and realize our vision is to move within the concrete realities of this particular moment.Then we can find fulfillment by meeting one thing each moment and taking the necessary action.Sometimes this involves singing a lullaby to our cooing baby; sometimes this involves cleaning upour own vomit.In therapy, Zen practice, and life, there are no insignificant moments, nor doesanything special happen.We are how we sit straight on a cushion, how we look a client in theeyes, how we take a deep breath in an argument with our spouse.Finding our place in ourcurrent element, we realize ourselves and each other every where, every when.Our lives arise in particular actions at particular places, moment by moment: not in the past,not in the future.It is not even possible to grasp the now. Our lives arise in the moment, butthis moment does not consist of some discrete, very small instant of time: It is not measurable.The point on which life arises is continually arising, and the place of the moment is completelysaturated with life.This means that our entire life appears each moment.Our entire existence, astherapist and client, is continually right where we are standing.Finding where we are standing ispractice.In therapy one person meets another at a certain time and a particular place.This meeting isneither the therapist s nor the client s, neither mine nor yours.The continuous activity of thismeeting is infinitely wide and infinitesimally particular.Sometimes our meeting focuses on asingle issue, sometimes it ranges over wide fields of meaning.Sometimes we have only a session in which to work with a client.Sometimes we have years.Each is a lifetime.Each handshake is acomplete therapy.Each moment of therapy totally expresses the entire being of client andtherapist, for each moment is life itself.There s no need to wait for something else.There s noneed to hope for some other time, some other place.Here is where we actualize the fundamentalpoint.12Here is the place; here the way unfolds.The boundary of realization is not distinct, for therealization comes forth simultaneously with the mastery of buddha-dharma.Do not suppose that what you realize becomes your knowledge and is grasped by yourconsciousness.Although actualized immediately, the inconceivable may not be apparent.Itsappearance is beyond your knowledge.Here we are, this moment.I am sitting in a room, different from the room you are in, now.Yet at the same time we are both in the same place: right here, reading and being read, your eyesseeing my thoughts shaped by inky letters spread out on the sinews of trees.I forget myselfwriting, and you forget yourself reading.I discover my self writing to you; as you react to this,you hear yourself listening to me
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